Pill Head, my ex Joshua Lyon’s tell-all memoir about his pill addiction, came out this week. I just finished reading it and my worst fear came true:
Pill Head, my ex Joshua Lyon’s tell-all memoir about his pill addiction, came out this week. I just finished reading it and my worst fear came true:
I’M NOT IN IT!
WTF?! Not on the dedication page, not in the acknowledgements, or anywhere from prologue to epilogue.
Lesley Arfin blurbed on the back cover that “It’s an eye-opener and it’s not pretty, and it will speak to every single person who picks it up,” but most of Pill Head could have been written in Braille there was so little that interested me about me. Josh writes about his abuse of Oxy, Valium, Xanax, Vicodin, morphine, and Percocet, which I guess is relevant to some people especially given Michael Jackson’s death, but not to anyone who wants to read about my life.
Josh wrote about him having sex with his ex-boyfriends, but nothing about our sex life. About one of his exes: “We’d gotten messed up on blow and had unprotected sex a few times.” When he and I were dating we had drunken unprotected sex once on New Year’s Eve. I prematurely ejaculated, and I know that those 35 seconds would have made for at least one compelling chapter.
In chapter 19 about a party in upstate N.Y. he writes, “I snorted coke, Dilaudid, Adderall and Xanax. I smoked pot and kept eating my supply of shitty hydrocodone pills.” I remember him going to that party; I looked after his cat while he was gone. Couldn’t he have fit that detail in the narrative somewhere? “I got fucked up while Ryan was home smoking in my apartment and breaking my cat’s feeding dish.” I’d read a book like that; the drama of the everyday.
I should have definitely been in Chapter 20, the Rehab Chapter. Josh was gone for 30 days and I dramatically looked after his cat while smoking in his apartment for all 30 days, but no mention of me anywhere. Look at this note he sent me from rehab about the mix CDs filled with early ’90s songs that I gave him:
“Thank you for the CDs!!! They are perfect. I keep pretending that I’m a teenage grunge kid locked up in juvi…”
That is more honest and evocative than anything written in the book. The Breeders, The Meatpuppets, Hole…I think everyone can relate to those bands.
Oh, and the keychain, how could I forget the keychain. Josh bought me this keychain when he was in rehab while on a fieldtrip.
This keychain is still connected to my keys, except when I see it I don’t think of him, I think of me. RYAN. It says more about me with one word than all 261 pages of Pill Head. Whatever. There had better be a sequel.
- Ryan Creed
Pathetic doormats and gluttons for punishment don’t make good for good reading. I have an idea: to get back at him you should stop mentioning him in your blog comments, oooh he’ll be so burned!
I hate books where people complain about having a terrible time on all of these drugs that I would have a good time on. Suck it up, gay-writer. Penises become magic on good pain-killers because they can fuck marathonally. Person who write this blog: Didn’t you love it that he could go so long without coming?? Get him back on the pharmies stat, or your relationship will deteriorate due to your ass cravings of pilled-boyfriend past.
This sucked because I’m not in it.
this dude sounds like a FAG
haha i love it
i remember the first time my assfuck buddy cried out a book and forgot to mention my browneye.
I hate ex’s who manage to skip your essential role in their fucked up lives when writing about themselves. But all writers are self-centred douche bags anyway. Point and case right here.
For a second I thought it said “Phil Head.” My parents used to follow Phil Collins around in a beat up old van.
I like this piece. Interesting.
This is pretty great.
High-five!!!
@ Necrosodomy – LOL
get over it fag obviously this dude has gotten over you.
haha nice. i want to read more from this guy!
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